…But Can’t I Just Quit While I’m Ahead?

Happy Friday! It is the last Friday of June 2017 which is insane to consider. For one thing, how did half of 2017 vanish into the time stream? Secondly, why did I allow myself so little time to prepare for Camp NaNoWriMo?

(Third, I can’t believe I have money left over after rent!)

If you aren’t familiar with NaNoWriMo, it is National Novel Writing Month. Generally taking place in November, NaNo sets writers around the globe to the task of writing 50,000 words of a story in the month of November. Other events, such as Camp NaNoWriMo, take place in other months during the year.

I’ve never completed NaNo. I had hoped each attempt would be THE attempt to get my fingers flying over the keyboard and reinvigorate my love affair with writing. It simply never happened. There was always an excuse.

There’s already a post about finding my love for writing again. This is just my anxiety about reaching the deadline I’ve been yammering on about. It’s here. I don’t feel prepared, yet here we are. I told people I was doing this. Strangers have said they would cheer me on. My husband is letting me take what time I can. So what are my options?

I could stop. I could pretend it never happened.

I could choose the path of least resistance and do the same thing I’ve been doing for the last 5+ years probably. My brain says that would be the least stressful.

It feels like starting an exercise routine. I fully anticipate pain and aching. My joints are preempting stiffness and sweat is already beading up along the back of my neck. That is not a comforting feeling.

Then I remind myself that the comfort, if it could be described that way, is in the accomplishment post workout. When the sweat splatters on my glasses or stings my eyes as it creeps down my brow and I smile, that’s when I know I’ve made the right choice. When I can look at a document on my laptop that is more black pixel than sea of white, I’ll know I made the right choice.

Or the hardest choice anyway. But it’s usually right.

I want to at least try. I don’t know when I’ll find more time once my part time job starts up and devours my weekends, but I want to try. Tomorrow I’m going to give it a try.

If you’re so inclined to join me for a virtual write-in, hop on Twitch at 10am EDT and find me here under SingingKazoozes. Let’s do it!



2 thoughts on “…But Can’t I Just Quit While I’m Ahead?

  1. I’m pretty similar, ( hoping each attempt to be THE attempt and never planning properly). Fingers crossed for this time!

    One blog post I discovered, who are also doing Camp, had the most brilliant quote: ‘ Every first drafts is perfect; because all they have to do is EXIST.’ I’m doing my best to keep this in mind.

    Are you planning to do the 50k? And what’s your story idea? Good luck!


    1. The plan was the 50k! I got caught up in my head again so I likely won’t hit it. HOWEVER, I’ve had other writing victories this month and isn’t that the point? I’m writing a bunch of flash fictions instead of one singular story.

      I hope your writing is proving successful!


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